Sunday, May 11, 2008
the past always comes back to haunt you. in good or bad ways. this time it wasnt too good huh?
i know its your gd fren's birthday. thats why i din make a fuss. i stayed home n was good till i heard you went to mos. the last few times you went with them wasnt that pleasant was it. it included all that vommitting n that one time i wun forget so easily. thats why i was pissed. because anything can happen in a club. n its not even about being a flirt. because sometimes you just cant stop wads coming.
the thing is frens n i. have good clean fun. i dun have an attraction to anyone n neither does anyone to me. n thats why its safe. but you out there in a club. loud music. wild lights and loads of alcohol. i dunno. i really dunno.
i dun hate your friends. remember we did all use to hang out together? all that late nights in town n night safari n mustafa etc.. we had fun. till a certain someone came along. n they rallied their support for that one certain person. like i was second class. like i was never their friend. just someone who tagged along. someone you brought. n then i knew i could never really be friends with ppl who disapproved of our rs and wanted to "bring it down". like i said i dun hate them. its just everytime you go out with them. i dunno how they're brain washing you. n i dun want to put you in the spot. but i cant give you up either.
your all depressed n lonely at home cause its the exams. n its getting to you. taking its toll mentally n physically. thats why you experience all that sense of worthlessness and emptiness. its not everytime that i go out with them. lesser now. n the last few times were really more like cux we had napfa other wise we wun have met anyway. n the rest of the other times you were there.
no ones stopping you from loving me. unless its your friends. surprise, surprise.
*im sorry i was harsh on you last night. i dun wish to quarrel everytime you go out with them. n i know its really really little n you were reluctant to go. but when your heart rules your head thats wad happens. you lose control. im sorry i did.
i wish taiwan would come soon cux it means your done with your exams n have 3 months just being mine.
itwasallyellow. at 12:08 PM