Wednesday, August 27, 2008

right now. i wish i wasnt me.

itwasallyellow. at 11:24 PM

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

different ppl have different ways of handling disappointment. some ppl just shrug it off. some keep it in n like a dormant volcano, have the potential to blow up one of these days. im the one who wears my heart on my sleeve. i dun hide. i dun try to play with your mind.


somethings are meant to be forgiven n forgotten. such cases are rare and far between but it doesnt mean they dun happen. dun lose hope yet cux maybe i just will and you'll be surprised.
 these moments will not be forgotten. n rest assure. they'll keep coming. :)


im sorry i heaven really been talking to you on the phone. its just that trainings end late and i got to feed my hungry stomach and bathe n all. i guess it'll get better once sch starts cux then you wun have to sleep so early...


on another note. ivp is really getting crowded. its like when its almost work time or sth then the train is always pack. same logic here. its almost competition time so there's an influx of players. we had 17 freaking players for a friendly match today. normal trainings? 11 is the most ive seen. life is so unfair that its not measured by the effort that you put in. but by your achievements. hais. acutally i just hope i can get the NTU spirit jacket. lol. but truthfully most of the time im on court my mind is almost blank. like wiped out n i cant remember wad im supposed to do. must be the blueblack i got. but yes, not exactly the makes of a good player. darn.



*reallyhopeicgwillbefunnnnnn!!!!

itwasallyellow. at 12:45 AM

Friday, August 22, 2008

你笑着说 他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔我的不安
那么沉重只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多 你总这样说
但你却沒有真的心疼我
是我想太多 我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
太晚我才懂 爱了你太多


nice song sang by nicky lee from machi. his voice is so super soothing and nice. like ppl with insomia can sleep while listening to his songs!


i tot the lyrics were somewhat apt for something that happened. the problem with me is. i always really do think too much. but i wonder if its wrong to do so. i guess the more i think the worst it makes me feel and then it affects everyone. but somehow its not really up to me to control. thoughts just come and go. especially when i have stretches of time alone by myself.


training was ok yesterday, i love sprinting up and down the court knowing that i have the stamina and the strength. but i still need to work on my defence. keep cosying up to the ppl i mark. too close for comfort. my baluku is still really pain. it hurts when i open my jaw wide. and it hurts when i gently prod it. sucks.


sometimes when ppl are too nice. its a little scary.


assignments due! i hate school:(


*missclaritycafe is a NO GO. service is slow. fish under cooked. total waste of time n money!

itwasallyellow. at 2:51 PM

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

sometimes even i dun understand myself. one moment im fine n super at peace with the world. happy vibes. the next when im all alone with time on my hands. the scariest thoughts flood my head and i become someone else. ( not the hulk thou-_-')


ive been blowing hot and cold. confusing you confusing me.


but yes i think ive made my decision. we'll give it one more go. this one last time to see if it works out.(to all the idiots who are like smiling n shaking their heads and saying i knew it!b-i-t-c-h-es.)


ok. i dunno wad else i can say cux im very hungry n geog is being an irritating subject. alrights. bye.

itwasallyellow. at 6:06 PM

Saturday, August 16, 2008

its emo friday. i tot i could outlast. but i conceded. its not about who wins or who loses or whether i lose dignity or wad. i cant concentrate knowing we're like that. i basically cant do anything. i cant even find a reason to smile. did i single-handedly cause this mess. i really dunno. all i know is im suffering. please put me out of my misery.


i dun want to call it quits. but i wonder if you do...............:(

itwasallyellow. at 1:26 AM

Friday, August 15, 2008

so here we are. once again at this familar scenerio we've been thru so many times.


am i really wrong. am i really that petty. or am i just so scared that i do nothing to disguise n replace that fear by anger.



i dunno. right now im just not thinking.


but i dun think im wrong. n if you think i am. maybe we'll have to talk things over and see if things work out. or not.


people who are unhappy with each other shud not force it n stay together.

itwasallyellow. at 1:10 AM

Monday, August 11, 2008

so this was the pre-bday celebration my little classies had for me at fish n co. . as you can see someone dunno where the camera is. haha.
this is conan apparently but i seriously have no idea who the hell he is. oh well. i just think i look quite nice in the spects. but missus dun like. so no spects for me.
the vesak day cake. need i say more? ohhhhmmmmmm...
the group photo taken by SHY'S FLING.

this is the acutal day of my bday.. had a nice dinner with the capalang gang.. mum whipped up a feast.. yums!
the gang and carpet, who refuses to look at the camera..
cam whoring once more while talking at the top of their voices and watching tv concurrently.
chilling out by the pool and taking funny pics..

this is the friday that i went out with the missus... she wanted to treat me to a nice dinner for my birthday! haha. seem to be having a really long celebration! anw.. this pic is a SOCK. from far.. missus tot it was a BIRD and screamed in horror. that is not the funniest. the funniest was when we got home again and it was still there, missus said. eh the bird still there lei! -__-'
happy ppl with good food at jacks place. i like the lobster bisque thou tcc's soups are still nicer.
doing funny things at starbucks in suntec on sunday.. missus trying out how it looks to have a moustache.

the missus and the cup holder.
n thats my princess:)
so here comes week2. suddenly but definitely and irritatingly. year 3 is starting to be a pain. assignments flying outta nowhere. sighhhhhhhhh.
*wish time would freeze when its only you and me.



itwasallyellow. at 10:25 PM

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

term has started yet again just as it will for the next 3 more sem before we call it quits with this place in faraway land. the usual time tabling stuff is driving everyone nuts. n i just hope everything will turn out just right for me. i hope i'll get good project mates to do project with if im in a class where theres like 0 pe peeps. that is depressing ok.


things seem to be turning towards where we finished off last sem. im hoping it wun get there cause it will mean that we'll be having endless sms wars. i promise i will not neglect you. thats all i can say for now..


misses missus. need i say more?

wish those days din pass so fast.......

itwasallyellow. at 1:06 AM

Monday, August 4, 2008

i swear these were her exact words.

SHERYL SIAO: why arent you sleeping. i want to masturbate.
me: (very terrified look)

itwasallyellow. at 1:28 AM

im so super tired. goodness. its been such a fruitful and busy day!!! im about to collapse on my bed.. well not really MY bed yet.. hopefully will be soooooon.. but i must really blog about the highlight of my day first.

so the day started with me waking up with a bad cold. the kind that totally blocks your nasal passages and you can neither breathe thru nor smell or taste anything. but missus booked me for cycling and its like the first time ever that she suggest something more strenous than tanning and tennis-ing so of cux la, die also drag myself up.. i tot there was something amiss when i was late and she was very nice about it. like..
me: sorry sorry, im gonna be late
her:dun worry. its ok. take your time.
that made me quite worried and i really sped up and like brisk walk to the bus stop. haha. so anyway, we got to the underpass after many are-we-there-yets and got our double bike! its really quite fun since the last time we both cycled was a year ago on rottnest island in perth! haha. n missus has just proven that well, ppl can forget how to cycle. its really quite cute thinking back thou not as cute when it happened cux she nearly crashed the both of us onto the curb with alot of screaming from her and of cux more swearing from yours truly. i think we gave up and i took the front in less than 10 metres. lol. so we cycled like really quite far and when we were just getting into the mood of it, there was a sudden loud chorus of HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU which you cant ignore. and when i turned i saw my crazy bunch of friends sitting on a picnic mat with stupid smiles on their faces. haha. how should i describe that feeling. hahah. im was super damn surprised and shocked and like cycled towards them with the biggest grin on my face. like ear to ear can. hahah. really must thank the missus for planning this surprise. i really din suspect a thing cux i was worrying about my life with her steering the bike. that was a good decoy! hahah.


but.. on a very serious note. i really appreciate all that you did. the effort and the sms-ing behind my back while we were cycling. most importantly, your virgin picnic preparation with the salad and all.. i proclaim myself TOUCHED!!!!! haha. its really one of the best bday presents ever cux its priceless. moments with you and the friends:)


and thanks the wong for dragging everyone up or it'll be a picnic for me you n missus only. hahah. plus ferrying the food over and the VERY NICE BIRTHDAY SONG. haha.


manylovesandkissestothemastermindfortoday.Iloveit!





i moved into 16 like just. n im so freaking tired cuz stupid sheryl made me mop the floor. with my hands ok! my mother also never make me do that la. sobs. theres alot of dust ok. n after all i did i really hope her roomie will change over and stay in 3 instead. dear god please!!!!!

itwasallyellow. at 12:41 AM