Saturday, January 16, 2010
and for last couple of days they stopped visiting me. but once im home. i get them again. not once. but a couple of times. revisiting. repeating. telling me everything im dreading. showing me in slow motion everything im afraid of. but in a very sad way im glad i get them. its the only way i get to see you.
and i almost want to laugh out. how could i be? when was the last time i felt happy?
because you only live once. think about it.
to be yourself. but only that way can you truly be happy.
even if i knew you would hurt me. even if i know the decision will still remain the same. even if i know there will be second time.
even when i say i can....... i miss you so much.itwasallyellow. at 7:45 PM