Friday, January 1, 2010
The last night i spent with you, i laid in my bed huddled next to you, desperate for warmth. Not from the room, or the temperature, but from the body laying next to me already fast asleep as if nothing in the world was troubling them. I, on the other hand, stared wide eyed into the foggy bedroom, watching the fan blades spin around and around in one motion over and over. Just like us. A repeat. I felt the silence, i felt the space between us - it felt like a house was wedged between us even though essentially all but two or three inches separated us. That was the last night i spent with you, next to you, a part of you.and the next morning. the moment you leave me. you become someone else. the one i cant fathom. the one so far.. that no matter how hard i reach out.. i cant grasp..
i feel you slipping out of my fingers.. nothing i do will ever be enough..
no one is indispensable. point proven.
itwasallyellow. at 11:16 PM